Lost in love

.Thursday, September 10, 2009 ' 7:42 PM Y

and your love is all i ever wanted

Happy 11th month anniversary my darling Hafizhurahman. =D One month left for our annual one year anniversary together.

Never thought that I'm inlove with the person I hated the most! HAHA! Yeah, I hate you when we were just friend. You always annoyed me. When I look at your face, you always made me want to puke. We never get along last year. We always fought back then. What surprised me was that after the horrible long month of fight, it's like I know you more just by fighting with each other. I always think of you, really miss you and I kinda like you.

I tried to confess that I like you but I'm afraid that I'm totally wrong with my feeling. So I just waited and waited for three or four days then you admit that you like me. I was shocked! HAHA! But in the same time I'm happy. Then my feeling towards you started to grow. My heart at that time really really need you. At the same time, I had a boyfriend whose name I always puke when I pronounce it. =P. HAHA! We were together for about a week then I broke up with him because he such a cry baby. As you can see, I never trust guys back then because of my experienced with them. I always crushed my ex-hearts because of revenge and hatred.

Back to meandyou story. He proposed me during a beautiful geological weather when the Rainbow was seen with the Sun. He proposed me in the afternoon pulang tu. =P But that day I will never forget because of it's beautiful scenery. When I started my relation with him, actually I didn't trust him at all. Well just 1%. Hehe. And want to know something shocking?? When we first started our relationship, I want to crush his heart also. HAHA! (I'm sorry). I was going to break him up at our first monthsary. But I couldn't because it's like I totally want to know you more. There's something special about you that makes me curious and need to know. So after tthat, I started to know more about you and you know what? My trust towards you have increased 40%. From 1% to 40%? Wow~just in a month, you had make my trust increased in large amount.

Now, I'm totally inlove with you. My heart always filled with rainbow and lollipops-sweet lollipops =). I don't want to lose you. You will always be mine until death do us apart! I always have negative thinking for example last year, I've been thinking and noticed that you still liked her. I think that maybe I'm the barrier, the hinder between their relations. Oh damn! I was going to let you go and let you be with her but my friends gave me some adviced. They said that I shouldn't do it , just think about my own future with him. Don't think of others. Always be with him. Never break his heart and bla bla bla.. So I listened to my heart. My heart told me to just let you go but I just couldn't. You are my everything. So I will do anything just for you because I love you. Now my trust is a 100% towards you! YEAY! Hehe. So just want you to know something that I will always be with you no matter what happen and I always love you. You are my future. =)

I'm sorry if I have hurt your feelings. I'm sorry if I'm your worst nightmare. I'm sorry if I'm not the type of girlfriend you're searching for. I'm sorry for my rude behaviour. I'm sorry for everything but I never say sorry for making you jealous because if you're jealous, it's easy for me to know that you really love me. Hehe =D. Anyway Happy Anniversary dear. Always beside you. ^-^

From now on, any girls who want to steal him away from me, you have to go through me first! To ask for permission laa.. =P HAHA! kiddin'. I will never let you go! That's my last words before I'm gone for good. =)

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.Saturday, September 5, 2009 ' 3:51 AM Y

and your love is all i ever wanted

You never thought what will happen to us if we are in form 6?
We all want to stay with our spouse forever but what happen if we separate after O'level?
Some might go to other country to continue their study but some aren't.
Couples always said "we will be together forever" but do you think it will work?
If it's a fate for us to stay and stick together, that will be a relief but if not?
My aunt always say "think for yourself,then you can think of others. Your future is important."
It's true what she said but what if my future is you?
What if I really can't face the world without you beside me?
Why do time have to go so fast? Can't it stops just so I can be with you for a long time?

I just heard another love story. This couple, namely A and B, they both loved each other during secondary school. They had been together for 4 years. Want to know something? They both repeated in form 3 and in form 5 just so they could meet each other and stay together. A is a smart girl, she repeated because she want to be with him at that time. They always used these words "we will be together FOREVER! Trust me. I'll never leave you." Then A passed her exam but B doesn't. A went to form 6 and B quite studying because A wasn't there with him. He messaged and tried calling her many times but she never replied nor answered his call. He depressed because A totally forgot about him. They didn't break up yet. They also never contact each other for one whole year. One day, B worked as a security guard in one of the upper six high school in that country. He saw her face but not so sure whether that girl was her or not. He called her name, and that girl glanced at him and quickly she walked away. B was surprised and assumed that girl was her. He followed her queitly and at a corner, he saw her hugging with a hot hunky guy. He ran towards them and grabbed her arm. He scolded her for leaving him, and for not calling nor meet him at all. The girl cried "we are over! I don't want to have a stupid boyfriend! Get a job!" B faced was red and angry and said "you're the one who promised me not to leave me but you don't fulfill it! Urgh, I'm stupid enough to fall inlove with you!" He slapped himself and walked away. Then A's boyfriend at that moment broke her up because he's afraid he will be hurt by her just like B. That's the end of their love story.

People tend to fall inlove with the wrong person whom they thought was the right one but I can feel that I'm falling inlove with the right person and I believe that our love will last longer.

Ak Nur Hafizhurahman, i love you!

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.Sunday, August 30, 2009 ' 6:31 AM Y

and your love is all i ever wanted

When we're together, I feel that my heart beat faster. When I have problems, you help me and cheer me up. It's just me that stupid enough to make you sad and feel unappreciate. I'm terribly sorry. Your birthday is tomorrow (31st August 2009), I have prepared last minute gifts for you. haha. If want to know how hard my sis and I have been through to make you a special present, well then, see my update in this blog tomorrow night. =) I'll post pictures and stories. Hehe.

Iloveyou Ak Nur Hafizhurahman bin Pg Hamzah!

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